Mel B has confessed to snorting six lines of cocaine a day while working on The X Factor ‘to get her through living’ with her husband of ten-years Stephen Belafonte.
In her autobiography Brutally Honest, serialised in The Sun on Sunday, the Spice Girl, 43, also revealed she tried to take her own life with nearly 200 painkillers in 2014, when appearing on the live shows.
She was replaced for the Saturday semi-final but appeared the next night in a dress which showed off her bruises following her suicide attempt – at the time she blamed a stomach ulcer.
Admitting she started her day with two lines of cocaine during the series, Mel said: ‘I was a sad, pathetic person. I was out of control. I was probably taking five or six lines a day before and after work.
‘It numbed my pain. It lifted me up enough to be ready to fire on all cylinders and forget about everything but the show.’
She wrote: ‘I was so low that two weeks into filming The X Factor I’d started using cocaine to get me through the run of the show. To get me through living with Stephen, which felt like neurotic claustrophobia.’
Yet the singing sensation believes the drug did not affect her judging performance on the hit ITV programme – where she appeared alongside Simon Cowell, Louis Walsh and Cheryl – with Mel insisting she never took it during the shows.
The Wannabe hitmaker said she didn’t need to take anything during the programme as she would be laughing along with the judges and the crew.
But as soon as filming finished for the 2014 series, the Leeds-native snorted the drug, revealing that it took ‘less than a minute’ to get her hands on some.
She also detailed the moment she attempted to take her own life, taking aspirin she had stockpiled over the years.